Autobiographical Essays
Beate Caspari-Rosen, MD
(1910 - 1995)
Lest We Forget
to my children and grandchildren
A few weeks ago I received a letter from the Holocaust Museum in Washington
asking for a donation. When I wrote a check, I noticed a short line
on which I could write the name of a victim of the Holocaust; there
was space for one name only. I wanted to name my cousin Ellen Caspari,
the youngest of my cousins, but then I realized that an additional
18 members of my family lost their lives in this murderous attack on
the Jews. I therefore decided to write short biographies of each of
them so that they would not be forgotten. They are:
My mother's brother
Alfred Arnswalder and his wife Trude
My mother's sister Regina
Arnswalder and her husband Julius Ostrodzki; their son Hermann
Ostrodski and his wife
My father's sister Mariechen Caspari and
her three sons Dagobert, Hugo and Jack
My father's niece Ida and her husband Paul Mindus
My father's nephew
Paul Caspari (der lange Paul)
My father's niece Ilse and her husband
Abraham Ellen Caspari
Biographies:
Alfred and Trude Arnswalder:
My uncle was a physician in a working class neighborhood in Berlin,
not far from where we lived. He and his wife Trude had two children
Immanuel (Immo) and Bertel who were about ten years younger then I.
For a brief period during Hitler's regime, a few children were allowed
to leave Germany in a children's transport; they were taken in by certain
foreign countries, mainly Holland, England, and Palestine. Immo
and Bertel, ages 14 and 16 respectively, went to Palestine. Their parents,
however, had to stay behind, knowing that they probably would never
see their children again. How these parents, when saying goodbye to
their children at the station kept up their spirits is beyond my imagination.
I was told that nobody cried or broke down. What courage they showed!
My uncle Alfred was my mother's oldest brother and a very honest and
conscientious person, but I cannot recall ever seeing him laugh. However,
I do remember his reaction when he saw me in my first dress for a formal
dance-- at that time all my clothes were made either by a seamstress
who came to our house or, as on this occasion, by a tailor. When I
modeled it for my family, Uncle Alfred objected to the short
skirt which showed more of my legs than he thought decorous and the
dolman of the back where he said the dance partner would touch my skin.
His objections were dismissed by my parents and by my maternal grandfather
[Louis Arnswalder], who lived with us. My uncle probably was my mother's
advisor concerning other matters in my life. On one occasion I overheard
a telephone conversation between my mother and uncle; my mother said: "and
this time she brought home an American." The year was 1933 and
Hitler was already in power, but nobody yet comprehended that he actually
would undertake the complete destruction of the Jews.